The personal scriptorium of Joshua Corlew.
“Employ thy time well, if thou meanest to gain leisure.” – Benjamin Franklin
I know I am not alone in this. There is a strange sadness to be had when you find yourself plagued by the inability to manage your free-time. For instance, while at school, I work tirelessly with the goal of getting to winter or summer break. I plan a variety of things to accomplish, books to read, and projects to begin once I finally have the time. Then, when the break finally comes around, I find myself sleeping in, wandering aimlessly about my house, taking an inappropriate amount of naps in proportion to my increased sleeping regimen and generally at want for something to do. Just God forbid it be anything harder than turning on my laptop.
Free time is one of the hardest things for me to manage. There is a reason for the proverb “If you want something done, give it to a busy person.” At school, free time is easier to get the most out of because it comes in such short supply and you know you may not see it again for some time. At home and on break I find myself plagued with an overabundance of free-time and become paralyzed, unsure of what to do first, how much time to devote to something, and wonder if I can’t just put it off one more day since I have such a long time before responsibilities return.
I am now in the midst of putting these free-time blues to rest. Part of the reason is because I only have a few short days left until I begin training for my job this summer, and the other part of the reason is that I want to accomplish a lot more this summer than earning a paycheck. There are some books I really want to read, some things I really want to learn, and I really want to focus on writing far more than I previously have.
Today was my first day of acting out this exercise in “carpe diem” and I did the unthinkable thing of making myself get up at 7:30, do some physical exercise, and jump into the Scriptures. These past two weeks of vacation have been a time of rapidly declining physical, mental and spiritual discipline and I desperately needed to get back to challenging myself and making sure I was growing, rather than slowly weakening. I will be busy this summer and on some days I will be required to get up early, travel an hour and a half or so, teach four long classes to young students and drive home late just to get up early and do it all over again. I am not and will not be ready for that by napping throughout the day and browsing God’s Word at my random leisure and I will certainly not feel satisfied if I am unable to accomplish something I really want to do this summer, such as learning a programming language or getting a lot of writing done. So I finally realized I could no longer afford to let my precious days of freedom slip by unconquered.
Like splashing cold water on your face in the morning, waking up from an overly long holiday from work, challenges and personal growth is not fun, but necessary and maybe even a little refreshing…although, to be fair, I did schedule a small, short nap into my day.
Slowly but surely, right?